Firstly,I wanna tell you how I found you k.So one of those days,I was in the same lift as you. And I dont really notice my surrounding and I dont tend to remember people unless I've really talk to them. However,you caught my eyes. I was attracted to you. Since then I kept going to level 4. Finding which class you're in. And I found,I saw you from far. But I couldnt bring myself to say Hello.
Then Nana uploaded pictures of you and I was like Isnt she? Seriously,was it fate that bought you and my sis to know each other and then I added you on FB. You didnt accept! I was like.... hmm,you're not that easy.
Until one day,one fine day! AFter my touchrug training,you accepted my friend request and post on my wall! OMG,I rushed back home to reply you. We chat. I was excited to know more bout you. I was looking forward to chat with you again the next day. So we chat again. Then we bump into each other a few times. *giggles* I was THAT shy that I dont even dare to look at you. And when you'll walk away then only I dare to look up to see you walk away.
We then exchange numbers. HAH! I was SUPERHAPPY that I was running around skipping jumping to show how happy I was. Thinking bout it,really make me smile. So we texted and I said the first love you,before I went for training. Typing that was super natural. Its like you were already mine when I typed that. You asked if I sent wrong,HAHAHAHA! I was like damn.. She thought I'm not serious but hey,that was seriously from the bottom of my heart. Cross my heart,kiss my elbow,I SWEAR.
FINALLYYY!!! That day we met. HAH! Sorry to teach you doing the bad things on the first day we met. Seriously,but WHAT A MEMORY! Haha,GREEN LANTERN. When I held your hand for the first time,I didnt wanna let it go. Its like badass couple in action. HAHA,hope it was a good memory for you. It was an adrealine rush for me. Especially holding your hand part. Then I sent you home,tho the time we spent together was that short,I am really happy that we met. Really. I still remember that long tight hug,tho it was weeks ago,it felt like yesterday.
The day I fetch you after your training. Honestly,I was super tired but I really miss you. And I wish to spend every single second of my life with you,tho Its impossible. So while walking to interchange,you told me you like 2 other people. I was jealous at first but when I realise your hand was in mine,then I knew Im never gonna let you go. In the bus,we kissed:) HAHA! Im not a good kisser,Im sorry. And bout your past,I swear it wasnt the reason. It didnt affect me,yet you let it affect you. I knew something was wrong when we alight from the bus. From your eyes,I saw it. But I didnt dare to ask whats wrong. You ask me to go. So I went off with a heavy heart. Seriously,at that point of time I just wanted to hug you and didnt let go. No words,just be there for you. But you didnt give me the chance too. Sighhh.
The next day,It didnt feel the same. I dont feel special anymore. I dont know why,maybe I was angry that you didnt find me during break and you went to eat with your friends instead of finding me. I know I didnt wanna let it affect me,but gahhh,I was dying to ask you to officially be my girlfriend and you didnt have the time for me,hence I got pissed. Im sorry. I went training. But everyone was asking me whats wrong,I didnt even talk during training. I will just do whats being told. I didnt wanna talk to anyone. Until I saw your text. I just broke down. I dont know what was the feeling. It was more than sad. It was worst than being sad. Thinking bout it... Urghh. I wanna cry already :(
Fel:( I miss you,I know its wrong but honestly,I will rather die than fight this feeling of not talking to you. We bump into each other thrice on Thursday. At the lift was awkward. All my classmates totally saw that. I laughed and smile in front of you but when i enter class,I was literally dying. I went to smoke. Saw you there. Disappointed. But I was happy tho,You smiled at me. Our eyes met. That I kept thinking bout it the whole day. I even told Fath. HAHA! Then when I'm going home,I was telling my friend,Val,i saw you twice today and BAMMM! Fated,we bump into each other again and thats when I notice your shirt, Nothing lasts Forever:(
Im sorry if this totally wasted your time. I really wanted to let it out. I just dont know how:( Every night,I'm typing shits on my phone and cancel everything. My drafts is full of halfway thru message which is suppose to send to you but I got no courage to do so. If you miss me,can you text me? Cause after reading this,just know that I'm waiting for your text everyday. Everytime it vibrates,Im in hope that its you. But it will always be Adrian.
Lastly I'm sorry if I fell in love with you too fast. I dont want to hope for something and having expectations. But I really pray hard you will come back. One day you'll realise how much you mean to me. I'll be right here waiting for you.
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